Writing letters two my two bestest friends at 3 in the morning and I can still cry!! :( 

I love you two so much, there is no way to express all the feelings of love for you two. :) <3

Why must someone as happy as me, always think of ending my life? I even plan things out accordingly for it to happen but I usually change my mind. Why must those negative thoughts pop in my head? WHY!?!?! Everything is going great, not as planned but still wonderful none the less…..these thoughts don’t seem to stop, what can I do to end all of this nonsense? 

I thought you were a coward, but I thought wrong. It was the fact that she said yes to go with you, and now I’m left hanging. Oh well!!! :P I don’t need a date to look good :D 

I want to talk to you because I want to get to know you. Talking to you makes my day, but it seems like its not mutual, I could keep trying but I’m tired. I’m just going to let things go there way. If you want to ignore me, go ahead. 

Am I not giving you enough hints? Is there a false message implied? I don’t know what’s wrong and it doesn’t seem like I can find out. You don’t want to talk to me, that’s what you’re showing me. 

well then like C lo green says it “fuck you”

See ya! according to people I know, you missed out man, on a friend. 

We’ll see how it goes!!!! 

Am I being nervous? or do I have a tummy ache? :D I CAN’T TELL LOL 

I can’t believe it, I actually did what I wanted for the first time in my life. It may be a stupid decision in the end but maybe not. :) I hope its not. :) REALLY REALLY HOPE SO!!! 

I don’t think I’ll be doing my hw tonight. too tired. :P from SDSU APSA HSC!!! :) 

It was so awesome!! :) ♥

You come across my mind constantly. When I see you, we pass each other like strangers. I’ve added you on Facebook and yet we don’t have a past. We’re suppose to “reconnect” on Facebook what the hell have you been up to? Apparently not using your resources very well. Too bad, so sad. For me, I want to talk to you, get to know you, curiosity kills and yet I don’t care. You’re someone I want to be friends with, although it seems like we have nothing in common, you’ll never know until you find out. I may be the loud and crazy one, but there is always a side no one ever gets the chance to know because people think I’m weird. I honestly hope that you’re not one of them. Maybe you’re shy? I don’t know, but let me know. We’ve talked before, we just never had a deep conversation. :|

Oh well right? by the end of this year, we’ll both go our separate ways. There seems to be no chance that I’ll see you after high school. So bye, see you when we acknowledge each others presence. 

DO YOU WANT TO BUY SEE’S CANDY? And help out Mira Mesa High School’s AVID program? PLEASE BUY SOME!!! Please contact me and I will hook you up!! :) Please and thank you for reading this post. :)

For those of you who participated in the musical, I greatly appreciate all the courage, strength and support. I would have never been able to receive the honor of meeting every single one of your fabulous people. ♥

I will always love you all, and remember the days when our rehearsals were the times we spent together. :)